Cancer

July is the month that belongs to Mandisa!

I celebrate my birthday on the 10th. The reason I love birthdays (anyone's birthday) is because that's the day God set aside to make that person! You can gather some things about a person without even knowing them simply from the time they are born. How cool is that?!

My zodiac sign is Cancer and though I love being born in July there are some benefits. If you live down south you always know what the weather is going to be like and can plan accordingly your activities for celebration. It's always hot!... (may or may not rain). We are committed to our emotions. We aggressively work to accomplish goals fueled by our emotions of course. We are nurturers and make others feel like they are a strong part of our circle...make them feel like family in a sense. We are motivators to get things accomplished. Pretty good huh? Yeah well I think so too. BUT

I'm not very fond of some characteristics of Cancer; for instance we are very moody, we hold grudges and our emotional sensitivity can get in the way. For me it's extremely hard to find that balance where you need just enough feeling for something or someone to know when to embrace or when to let go. I hope one day to master my discernment abilities before this lifetime but it's unlikely.

I allow people into my arena giving them the benefit of a doubt ( my stupid ass) allowing them to fuck up before I put the shield up and then cut you off. Most normal people do the opposite; they put the shield up and get to know a person first then decide if they want any dealings with them or not. This is where my zodiac sign fails me. No matter how cognizant I am of the situation and start off attempting to do it like most normal people, I always end up acting just like a damn Cancer. I just can't help it!!!

This year I celebrated with the best of both worlds...my girlfriends and my husband. I had a blast doing what I love to do most...eat, drink and being merry (and being merry is shopping). All of them really made me feel special, loved and appreciated. I got great gifts but my most valuable gift I got this year is a little more clarity, a little more hope and little more expectations. You see this year for the first time I didn't do the "I'm ....years old and look where I am now." This year I did "I'm 25 years old (again).. and look where I'm going!"

Cancer and all.