I was sitting at my cubicle and basking in my self loathing ...as usual. Nothing new. Oh wait! Today I did have something new. I woke feeling like shit and I said to myself "Self, you are going to be ok. You will be happy today." So today I made an effort to feel "happy" just to see how it turns out but as you can see from the time I woke up to me getting to my cubicle how fast that changed. Anyhoo, this lady who shall remain nameless (Virginia) comes in and starts talking to Figgy Pudding (don't ask...that's another story). The sound of her voice irritated me today. I have gotten accustomed to her and usually I can endure her and the typical morning conversations and singing hellos but today.....uhhh no no. This woman is soon to retire and I can't wait for day. Granted I do not dislike her but I don't like her either. Clearly the problem is not her....ok, it's me.
As I was sitting there only one thing comes to mind that would make my world turn and transform this frown upside down. I don't know why...but the very thought of it brightens my day. I want to flick a booger at this woman! I know I know I know!! It sounds immature but I want to do this one thing today. Nope not pay a bill or clean up the house or work the worklist. The thing on my Things to Do List for today, June 2, 2010 is flick a booger on this hooker!
So I ran the idea by my therapist to make sure it was within reason and to see what would come of it. Well surprisingly enough not only did I get approval but I got recommendations on how to do it AND....AND I got dared! It was suggested that I keep it on my finger and pat her on the back or shoulders. I loved the idea!
I know all of this sounds soooo crazy and cuckoo but I set out to make myself feel happy today. And the silly childish thought of flicking a booger on someone makes me laugh. You have to take your blessing as they come big or small. You have to do what you have to do to find something that will make you laugh. A small prayer and laughter was my itsy bitsy unexpected piece of happiness for today.
Hmmm I wonder what will get me through tomorrow.
As I was sitting there only one thing comes to mind that would make my world turn and transform this frown upside down. I don't know why...but the very thought of it brightens my day. I want to flick a booger at this woman! I know I know I know!! It sounds immature but I want to do this one thing today. Nope not pay a bill or clean up the house or work the worklist. The thing on my Things to Do List for today, June 2, 2010 is flick a booger on this hooker!
So I ran the idea by my therapist to make sure it was within reason and to see what would come of it. Well surprisingly enough not only did I get approval but I got recommendations on how to do it AND....AND I got dared! It was suggested that I keep it on my finger and pat her on the back or shoulders. I loved the idea!
I know all of this sounds soooo crazy and cuckoo but I set out to make myself feel happy today. And the silly childish thought of flicking a booger on someone makes me laugh. You have to take your blessing as they come big or small. You have to do what you have to do to find something that will make you laugh. A small prayer and laughter was my itsy bitsy unexpected piece of happiness for today.
Hmmm I wonder what will get me through tomorrow.
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You have a serious problem. What on earth is going on in that small head of yours? You know I have a weak stomach......yuck! : )
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